Why I Write

George Orwell and Joan Didion talked about in their articles how they write because it is their passion, their destiny. My reasons are nowhere near that deep. Though it sounds bad, most of the time I just write for a grade. I would say the biggest reason as to why I write is to work my way up to a good future. I wish that I could say "I write because I love to." But unfortunately, I cant.
 As a child, I tried to write. I started journals, started poems, even started a few stories. But those were never completed. I just did not have the devotion or drive to push me to keep writing. To be completely honest, I used to hate writing. Well, hate is a strong word...let's go with strongly dislike. I used to strongly dislike writing. Everything that I was being forced to write was a burden. But I soon realized that in order to be successful in what I wanted to as an adult I needed to know how to write, and more importantly, know how to write well.

So I pushed myself. I chose classes that I knew would help me enhance my writing abilities, and I worked hard. I think it has helped me tremendously. Writing has never been one of my fortes, but by going through these experiences my writing has improved. It is still far, far away from anything amazing though. There's still a lot of room for improvement.

Everytime I look back, I think "Why did I hate writing so much?" And I don't really have an answer. Maybe it's because I was never good at it. But that's not an excuse. Just because you're not good at something doesn't mean you should loathe it and stop trying. Or maybe it's because my brain just does not think creatively. I am a person that functions and thinks better with concrete facts. The half of my brain that works better is the science and math part. It's hard for me to be creative and think of the metaphors and imagery that brings life into a piece of writing. So I need to keep pushing myself to push through that barrier. And I think I have a little bit, because I am enjoying writing a lot more than before.